First off, I must say I laughed really hard to see what I used to have on this blog. The title of my chatterbox just made me laugh... "H0ll3r @ ChUr B0i". To really think I was into that stuff..hahha. Times have changed, or rather I've grown since I last used this blog.

So I find myself still stuck in this cycle again.

There's no need to dig into what has already happened,  just take things for what its worth and move on.

Move on: Much easier than it sounds like sometimes.

See the problem with me is that I don't know how to adjust my mindset.My thing with  now is that the experiences that I've learned with others doesn't necessarily mean that it will apply to others. Basicially making my experiences mean nothing, at least that's how I see it.

But see, even that has some fallacy in it. I've learned more about myself through the last four years then I have ever have yet.  I honestly don't know what I'm arguing about now. I see things through a complicated scope and therefore don't know how to effectively communicate how I feel. It has gotten to the point where I don't remember some things that I have gone through with someone, and then going through those same motions a second or even third time around, I am pushing others far away. If I've learned my lesson the first time, then there wouldn't be any problem.

At the least right now, I feel content to the point where I think I can do homework. Goodbye for now, I think I will visit you often.

a lil somethin i made over vacation.... its supposed to be like from third person view and im talkin to someone... iono somethin like that lol

You should have heard me sobbing that night
Got in the bed and stayed there
For days I just laid there
Having been permanently changed
But we won’t give into that now
Let’s take it from the start
You should have seen me smiling
Like the world was mine
She used to call me baby
Softly, sometimes
But if I dwell on those days to long
I feel like my life is over
And that’s no good so lets move on
To the part where I began to sense her distance
I barely can hold on tighter
And that makes it worse
Cause how am I supposed
To take it when she says
This is something im going through
It’s got nothing to do with you
I had a special evening all planned out
Desperately determined to re ignite
Some spark between us
She had to feel something for me
A love as strong as ours
Doesn’t just go away
You can’t just turn it off
Unless she was lying all those times
But I don’t think so
I really don’t think so
The way she used to look at me
Made me a thousand feet high
The meaning of the word cool
Not the same geek
Who fumbled with his words that night
The ugliest night
I said some pretty awkward things
I got the feeling she felt sorry for me
I should have seen it was hopeless and left it alone
But I had to go on
Embracing my self
I MISS WHAT WE HAD I NEED YOU SO BADLY
I must have sounded pretty pathetic I know
And that’s why I don’t blame her for what she said
Listen to her rambling
And we don’t know each other that well
But you’re so easy to talk to
I feel I could tell you almost anything
I hope I haven’t put you off
I have a tendency to do that
Why don’t I just be quiet.
 

another lil thang i made

Each day we meet my love for you
Keeps growing stronger But everytime we meet
Makes leaving you so much harder
So how are we to know That this just wasn't so
That we just have to let each other go
If loving you is all that means to me
When being happy is all I hope you'd be
Then loving you must mean
I really have to set you free
Letting go is not an easy task
When smiling feels like
I must wear this lonely mask
It hurts deep inside And I just cannot hide
That there's anguish at the thought
That we should have to part
If loving you is all that means to me
When being happy is all I hope you'd be
Then loving you must mean
I really have to set you free
If loving you is all that means to me
When being happy is all I hope you'd be
Then loving you must mean
I really have to set you free...

ehhh....

wouldnt that be cool if i turn up as one of those hot sexy emo guys?lol anyway eah theres nothin to do herre... its coo when "the one n only" ateh comes here... haha but thats pretty much it. well anyway, im out. i think ima try to put a guitar part in one of these songs haha bye

 

iight...faZe tw0 k0mpleTe..yuH LyKe?